=> life is hard. sometimes you've just gotta suck it up. how do we suck it up? i have NO clue.
so i had to talk to she who must not be named last friday...to get closure...yea cause that went great. and now apparently i need to find it within myself to let myself to trust her again. which sucks cause i have no clue how to make myself do that. afraid to let my gaurd down; but then again who wouldn't be afraid after such a betryal.
so i came back home...had a vex...then filled that bottle with 3:4-ish bailey's.
then s just had to tell my pastor i was drinking...who told my other pastor...who told my dad...who just made sure i talked to s about it and why she told my pastor without telling me she was going to.
*sigh* i know you're concerned girlie. but really? what is there to be concerned about? i'm not gonna get drunk. if i was going to, then i would've done so 2 new year eves back.
=> on a happier note. i graduated from physio!!! this means that i'm....no not back to 100% but getting there...soon. just need to strengthen it some more; only what i can work on myself, nothing physio can help with. Thank God that i switched to my mom's physio, recovery was so much faster after that.
=> i.
miss.
him.
if0nly Life Was Fantasy.,
- Mag.
Into The Sunrise.
=> youth retreat this year was AH-MAY-SHING!!
shouts to vince who introducted ghetto taboo to us. (the funnest game ever). it's just like taboo, except you write your own cards and there's 3 rounds. the first round, is normal taboo. the second round is charades, but since you're using the same cards, you already know what they might be possibly acting out. the third round is taboo but only allowed to say one word to describe the card.
as "plain" as it sounds in writing, it's actually really really really really really really fun...it's just that you all end up yelling the answers and you might loose your voice later.
well the equation actually goes: ghetto taboox2 + popcorn + talking for four hours + lack of sleep = fun times + watching sun rise + voicy go bye bye
=> and so since i lost my voice over the long weekend, it didn't help that i just got it back yesterday. and today i go to wonderland for a field trip. which well since i missed my voice so much that i just kept talking (even though i couldn't yell during the rides...i did talk through a few of them though). so then tonight...at the end of charis' coffeehouse, my voice almost left again and now i have everyone advising me to stop talking...
=> ELEPHANT!!
if0nly Life Was Fantasy.,
- Mag.
shouts to vince who introducted ghetto taboo to us. (the funnest game ever). it's just like taboo, except you write your own cards and there's 3 rounds. the first round, is normal taboo. the second round is charades, but since you're using the same cards, you already know what they might be possibly acting out. the third round is taboo but only allowed to say one word to describe the card.
as "plain" as it sounds in writing, it's actually really really really really really really fun...it's just that you all end up yelling the answers and you might loose your voice later.
well the equation actually goes: ghetto taboox2 + popcorn + talking for four hours + lack of sleep = fun times + watching sun rise + voicy go bye bye
=> and so since i lost my voice over the long weekend, it didn't help that i just got it back yesterday. and today i go to wonderland for a field trip. which well since i missed my voice so much that i just kept talking (even though i couldn't yell during the rides...i did talk through a few of them though). so then tonight...at the end of charis' coffeehouse, my voice almost left again and now i have everyone advising me to stop talking...
=> ELEPHANT!!
if0nly Life Was Fantasy.,
- Mag.
Line Of Limits.
=> has it even clicked into his head that he has a girlfriend? If it has then why on earth does it seem like he’s chasing me like a german shepherd going after a drug dealer? I really have no clue what on earth is going on anymore or how I should be reacting. First off I’m in partial wtf whytheheck.. shock as the line becomes gray going “dot dot dot, crap what should I do..crap ugh. Whatever then..?” Then there’s the part of me wants to ask, “wtf are you doing? You have a girlfriend and I’m not interested. Get your hand off me.” and then there’s a third part of me that’s just really curious about how far he’s going to go until he think it’s too far.
ms gf, now hear this out. I have no intentions of being the other woman, I have no intentions of stealing your boyfriend (I’m not and nothing like she who must not be named), I am not interested in your boyfriend (I have my eyes on someone else). In other words, he’s all yours and despite what you might seem to think or hear or whatever, I’m not doing anything; I’m simply being a girl and acting normally as I would with any other person (ie. flinching when getting poked in the sides). I’m stating this only because I can only assume (yes I know that by assuming I’m making an ass out of u and me but) that you’re upset with me or something seeing as though how you don’t say hi to me at all anymore and being very un-you-like. So forgive me of any impressions I’ve made, I have no intentions of anything at all.
=> physics need to die. Stupid physics, stupid projects (though I’m quite happy with the car…hopefully the results will reflect the consistency that I had achieved during my home and pre-class trials), stupid school…
=> I need… a block of gelatin and a knife.
ms gf, now hear this out. I have no intentions of being the other woman, I have no intentions of stealing your boyfriend (I’m not and nothing like she who must not be named), I am not interested in your boyfriend (I have my eyes on someone else). In other words, he’s all yours and despite what you might seem to think or hear or whatever, I’m not doing anything; I’m simply being a girl and acting normally as I would with any other person (ie. flinching when getting poked in the sides). I’m stating this only because I can only assume (yes I know that by assuming I’m making an ass out of u and me but) that you’re upset with me or something seeing as though how you don’t say hi to me at all anymore and being very un-you-like. So forgive me of any impressions I’ve made, I have no intentions of anything at all.
=> physics need to die. Stupid physics, stupid projects (though I’m quite happy with the car…hopefully the results will reflect the consistency that I had achieved during my home and pre-class trials), stupid school…
=> I need… a block of gelatin and a knife.
Everything Changes.
=> so i was just randomly thinking today and i don't know if it was just because sharon was mentioning retreat to me while walking to our bus stop, but anyways. yea i was just thinking about what we did at retreat last year, what everything was like both at retreat & church and other things in my life. then i noticed that alot has changed while other things were like, "omg it's been a year!?"
it just seems like the conditions were so different back then:
then: the falling out between me and she who must not be named was JUST beginning to start.
now: ugh. just ugh. (see old posts)
then: we've all just began to REALLY get worried about K.
now: still praying for her. still looking for quotes in the Bible and in books for her. yet to get to sit down and talk to her though...(to be put on my to do list)
then: me and saki started taking the first majorer steps in healing our "wtf happened in gr6? bff to ihateyouguts in 2 secs?" thing. to be honest, i was a bit "alrighty then, first test, mayfair's chalk off, drawing a moose eating sushi together..."
now: THANK GOODNESS we're back to normal again. as normal as normal can get anyways, but actually probably even closer now than before.
then: the Sr.s of ezekiel = the Sr.s of silas = the ones i look up to =)
now: they're all off to uni, well actually DONE their first year of uni.
then: infatuation with liam's amazing eyes.
now: they're still as gorgeous as ever except i don't get to see him as often now.
then: one year today...or well yesterday since its 1 in the morning, shout out to joanne's bday. even though she had her party a few laters, same diff. which honestly it seemed like only last month...but then again i remember that i was still using maybelline great lash.
now: just finished making and sending her personalized e-pic-card (ecard but with a picture of themselves via the if0nly dictionary) around an hour ago. covergirl lashblast all the way; can't wait to get lashblast luxe.
ahaha well that seemed like a history lesson disguised as a blog... whatever LOL. nighty nights!!
it just seems like the conditions were so different back then:
then: the falling out between me and she who must not be named was JUST beginning to start.
now: ugh. just ugh. (see old posts)
then: we've all just began to REALLY get worried about K.
now: still praying for her. still looking for quotes in the Bible and in books for her. yet to get to sit down and talk to her though...(to be put on my to do list)
then: me and saki started taking the first majorer steps in healing our "wtf happened in gr6? bff to ihateyouguts in 2 secs?" thing. to be honest, i was a bit "alrighty then, first test, mayfair's chalk off, drawing a moose eating sushi together..."
now: THANK GOODNESS we're back to normal again. as normal as normal can get anyways, but actually probably even closer now than before.
then: the Sr.s of ezekiel = the Sr.s of silas = the ones i look up to =)
now: they're all off to uni, well actually DONE their first year of uni.
then: infatuation with liam's amazing eyes.
now: they're still as gorgeous as ever except i don't get to see him as often now.
then: one year today...or well yesterday since its 1 in the morning, shout out to joanne's bday. even though she had her party a few laters, same diff. which honestly it seemed like only last month...but then again i remember that i was still using maybelline great lash.
now: just finished making and sending her personalized e-pic-card (ecard but with a picture of themselves via the if0nly dictionary) around an hour ago. covergirl lashblast all the way; can't wait to get lashblast luxe.
ahaha well that seemed like a history lesson disguised as a blog... whatever LOL. nighty nights!!
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