=> I told myself not to fall; I didn't and I'm happy for that.
I knew that you'd be leaving when the school year was over, I knew it from the very start. That was the beauty of it, that after this year you'd just be part of the past and that whatever was done would be done; that it'll all be temporary. I don't mind you leaving really, but there's something about having you as a safety blanket that makes me feel... well, safe. It's just really bittersweet I guess and I'm kind of at a lost for what I should say, of what I should do - not just for our goodbye in a few days but next year. What am I going to do without you next year?
I pray to God that we'll be able to keep this friendship going, I really do. Not only did you unknowingly serve your purpose of keeping me sane but you've also helped me get over a number of other things as well.
Ugh I'm going to miss you way more than I thought I would... and it kinda sucks...
if0nly Life Was Fantasy.,
- Mag.
Something To Remember.
=> Remember that I have commanded you to be strong and brace. So don't be afraid. The Lord your God will be with you everywhere you go. -Joshua 1:9
if0nly Life Was Fantasy.,
- Mag.
if0nly Life Was Fantasy.,
- Mag.
The Past Haunts; Even If You Don't Want It To.
=> You know, I love Power to Change and I love the girls in my DG with all my heart. It's just that we're doing the "My Story" series & our faith adventure last term was posting our testimony... and it's REALLY REALLY hard for me. Freakn that's why I need my ring, why I can't let go of skating; cause it reminds me that it's over and that everything is okay. I don't want to be reminded of SF multiple times throughout the week, every week. I don't want to be on the verge of an emotional breakdown all the time like how I was before. I put all that behind me, I don't want to revisit it even if it's for a totally different reason.
Even though I want to, I scared and don't know if I'll be able to make it through the series...
if0nly Life Was Fantasy.,
- Mag.
=> Update: Unfortunately I have had to pull out of finishing the series. There was a bunch of reasons, but mainly I just really couldn't bare to go through the emotions over and over again week after week...
Even though I want to, I scared and don't know if I'll be able to make it through the series...
if0nly Life Was Fantasy.,
- Mag.
=> Update: Unfortunately I have had to pull out of finishing the series. There was a bunch of reasons, but mainly I just really couldn't bare to go through the emotions over and over again week after week...
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